So I can be quite stubborn sometimes.. I am now 47 and since I was 17 I have been battling with something that my psychology teacher told me.  He told me I was dangerously feminine and that I was at risk of a mental breakdown in later life, all because I ticked the wrong boxes in one of those aptitude tests.  I don't like boxes and I don't like being told there is something wrong with me, so I wanted to prove him wrong. 

Nursing is a vocation, you do it for love not for money.... This is what I have heard on repeat for a lot of my life- isn't she admirable, doing a job for love not money, helping others even though she can barely look after herself and her kids, because its a vocation. What a 'good' nurse I was

I believe that taking a purely holistic approach means that we are able to look at the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual, and that if we are able to deeply listen to the body, we will know what it is that we need most in each moment. Many of my clients have come to me thinking there is something 'wrong' with them or that they are behind, but another thing that I have also seen in my clients is the devotion and love that they feel guiding them to heal on a deeper level in preparation for becoming a parent. This has also been an inspiration to me.

Thinking about the themes of life death and rebirth at perimenopause, how learning from nature as well as the stories of Goddess's from many different tradition can really support us throughout this transition.

In that moment I felt that presence again, the feeling I associated with Mary Magdelene,  but I realised that it was not anyone else.  It was all the parts of myself that she was reflecting back to me, the parts of myself that I had been hiding because I didn't feel it was safe. Like so many of us have. 

One of the things that I was offered was HRT, because as the doctor said 'many woman experience some sort of awakening at perimenopause and HRT helps' I wondered what she meant by 'helps'

I love Shamballa because it is not about 'fixing' anything but it is all about empowering ourselves and others by remembering our true nature. The more we embody this frequency, the more we help others to remember it too.

My son suggested to me the other day that I should make a mini course called 'Embracing love'. He said 'mum, you do all these complicated things but that's what you always talk about and it's simple' And I think he had a good point. And I will make that course, but for now I thought I'd write a blog.

As a nurse and an energy healer, I often feel like I am speaking two languages, they don't translate very easily at all. Medicine doesn't have language that explains the spirit because it only goes by what you can prove and see. So in the search to find the right label for something more spiritual maybe we are preventing people from seeking the right support.

I was standing in a field on a camping trip thinking ahead to the next meal I was going to cook for my kids. My friend was sitting in his camping chair drinking a coffee and looking at the beautiful view. As I walked over to the tent to look through the food he said to me 'you are such a typical nurse, you don't know how to switch off'

What lights you up and how can you do more of it? We don't often ask this question in healthcare but I feel it is one of the most important. When our life force energy can freely flow this will also affect our health but fighting it can drain our energy leading to dis ease. Here I share a little about my own journey in searching for and following purpose and the challenges along the way.

This might the the absolute last thing you want to hear when manging symptoms of peri menopause alongside everything else that life is throwing at you...but you are needed in the world as a powerful wise woman and maybe the goddess IS calling you. Even when you feel you are being pulled in all directions and don't even remember who you are anymore. She is there to help you remember